When we first started these videos', I did not want any of my alters being shown. I am very secretive and somewhat "ashamed" that they even exist. I was happy with Kevin doing his thing and me adding my two cents at the end. But, Tessa wanted to explain herself to the world........
Watching this video, watching Tessa speak, is so weird. How can she be christian if I am so anti-christian? How can she do the things that I cannot? I can see, however, how nobody would know that she is not me. She is very calm and grown up. She is matter of fact and she "looks like me'. She is the grown up in the system. haha
I know now, that if it wasn't for Tessa, I would have dropped out of school, I would not have stayed married for as long as I did, I would not have had the jobs that I have had, I would not be where I am today. Tessa got me through school, she helped me in my marriage and motherhood, with her "calm" demeaner and "smart" mind I was able to navigate life, somewhat normally...at least that was how it appeared on the outside looking in.
If I was a betting girl, I would bet that Tessa is 60 % of my life. Without her, the 40% that is Sparrow would have crashed and burned. So how can I be upset or angry with Tessa living my life, getting me through my life? Really, the only thing that upsets me now, is that I had no idea that she was there, that any of the alters were there...I am grateful for Tessa. Funny, but in a freak way, Tessa is teaching me how to be an adult!
So watching this video is alternately bizarre and fascinating, but more than anything, educational to me. I understand more fully her role in my life, and I am grateful to her.
Thank you, Tessa
Sparrow
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