I know that this video makes "retirement" look like all fun and games and relaxation. This is my normal day...
But I have a lot of "not normal" days. Kevin has been moving into a new apartment this past month, and it has been very stressful for me, and him. His move, and issues with my family, has made me crazy! Crazier than usual...haha
We have not made a video of substance because of his moving and all the nightmare that entails that...that is why we have been absent.
I wanted to shoot a short video, just so ya wouldn't think that we have fallen off the face of the earth...we are still here.
Even shooting this video was a nightmare....It was over 20 minutes long...rambling nonsense, that Kevin had to cut out...then he had to learn to do voice overs for the shots of my critters and such, that was hard and time consuming...so even though this video was a dumb, stupid, non video...it took almost 2 weeks to edit and upload...and he was doing all of this during his move...which I feel guilty, because I kept pressing to get a video up...so I stressed him out as much as I stressed myself out.
I really suck at doing videos myself. I don't know how other systems do their own videos..when I watch Kevin editing, it seems so convoluted to me, I would get so frustrated with that aspect of putting up a video.. So I understand his hesitation about shooting videos...he is the one doing all the work, in front of the screen and behind it. I do nothing except my part, showing up and putting a face on DID.
If I was intelligent enough, computer savvy enough, I would do them myself and not have to rely on Kevin and his intelligence...but, I am not. I am so old school when it comes to computers....
So, I apologize for this video...it is mundane and stupid and really, who the fuck cares what I do in my day to day life of retirement....Me wanting to put a video out, shooting this one, was really a mistake on my part.
So, I hope that this video does not deter from the importance of getting education out there about DID, and bringing light to this disorder.
S
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