Sammy

 Sammy is my alter who does not speak.  She uses sign language to communicate with Kevin.  

Before I actually studied American Sign Language, I believe Sammy developed her own way of sign language.  You see, Sammy was born because of abuse and threats from the abuser.  He would put his hand over my/her mouth to keep us silent as certain forms of abuse were happening.  He would tell her/me if we said anything to anybody, my sister, my brother, my mother would all be hurt or killed or I would be killed...we were scared into silence....during one of those moments, Sammy was born.  The silent alter.  She lives in fear.

I have always, at least I thought it was me, Sparrow, who wrote the poems, sonnets and short stories...but now, I know it is Sammy.  She is the poet, she is the dancer, she is the lover of music.  She uses music and dance to relax, she uses poetry to speak...

Recently she entered this poem into my other blog.  I wanted to put it here for ya to read...Kevin believes that one day she will start actually talking with her voice,  but I don't know, after 50+ years of silence I don't think she will ever speak...anyhow, here is her latest poem:

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Corners of my soul, I cannot see,

I search and search,

but cannot find,

the key that will unlock my mind.

I want to speak, I have so much to say,

Maybe I will, maybe some day.

I am silent with fear

I am protecting all I hold dear.

I want to speak.

I really do,

I have so much to say

If you only knew..

All the hidden memories

only I can view.

Sammy