So, I rewatched this video and I have to clarify something. In the part about speaking about those who know of my DID yet "don't talk about it, or shove it under the rug" etc, I am speaking about my immediate family members. They are now all aware of my DID, yet they do not speak of it and they act like I am just "faking it or blowing things out of proportion". This is their defense...protect the abuser at all costs....
My friends that know of my DID, do not shove it under the rug, they treat me like they treat everyone else. Because really, everyone has some type of issue they are facing and having to navigate.
My republican religious family flat refuses to "understand or accept', they think they can just pray it away...Even my own husband (X) knew of my DID for many many years and did nothing to help or understand me, or even to listen to me...he just "prayed" and well, we see the power of that prayer! I fucking up and left everything, moved 1000 miles away, to a safe place. Seems their prayers only pushed me away more.....Prayer does not make DID go away.
Anyhoo, I hope that my explanation of that particular question clarifies what I was trying to say.
The hardest question, and the one question I WILL NEVER ANSWER.."How bad could it have been for your brain to split...or talk about particular traumas to anyone, except Kevin." It is nobody's business the horrors and details that I endured as a young child and teenager, that is only between me and a therapist and Kevin. PERIOD. So please, do not ever ask me or anyone else with DID the specifics of abuse. That is cruel.
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