This is an older video, and every time I watch it, I am shocked that Tessa will eat seafood...I cannot stand any kind of seafood...and the fact that she eats it, and loves it, is so weird to me, Sparrow.
Kevin called Sparrow an alter too....Sparrow is the host body, but when I developed DID and 7 more personalities, that gives me 8 personalities...to the alters, I am an alter also...My brain is not 100% mine...it is also theirs. So, it makes sense that I, Sparrow, am an alter as well.
I am predominately the one fronting...or at least I think I am, because remember, when one of the other personalities are fronting, I have no knowledge of it...I feel like it is still me, just lost a little time.
My entire life, the alters have been coming and going, and nobody ever noticed the difference, why? Because all my alters are experts at imitating me...they have to be...that is a way of protecting me, by putting me to sleep and taking care of business...
When we have to travel to the midwest for whatever reason, my alters know that is not a safe place for me, they do warn Kevin..he has ignored them at times and disaster happened...but it is a trial and error decision for Kevin...and he has learned to listen to them, listen to their concerns and act accordingly to try and alleviate any "potential disastrous outcomes" that might arise from a trip back..
We are all happy here in Virginia. We know that we are safe, we know that we can live our lives the way we want...we know that an "unsafe" family member will not show up at the door...we are all free to come and go in safety.
I encourage everyone to watch the Sophee video...self harm is atrocious, but understanding the reasoning behind it is informational and makes perfect sense. Sophee is not a monster, none of the alters are monsters...they all do what they "need" to do, to keep me safe. period.
Sparrow
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