I need to clarify my mention in the video about how children need "discipline". I am not talking about spankings and groundings and that type of discipline. I was speaking more of discipline in the way of structure, rules, boundaries, being taught respect of self and others and their belongings. Being held accountable for wrong doings, and making them right. That sort of thing....
I never had discipline. In fact, growing up I only had 2 hard and fast rules: Do well in school and do not get arrested or in trouble with the law. That was it. I raised myself. I had no curfews, I had no parental supervision...I was left to fend life on my own. Yes, my parents gave me food, clothing and a roof over my head...but prisoners get the same thing. In fact, when I graduated high school, my mother bought me luggage. GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE.
I only had one christmas that was a good memory, but that was not until I was 15 yrs old. I wanted a 10-speed bike, so I could go places....and christmas morning I got up and under the tree was that bike. I was in shock...I had actually gotten something I really wanted. To this day, I sometimes dream about that bike...that bike represented my freedom. My biological father bought me that bike.
I wish that I could enjoy this season, I truly do....but every year from November 1rst to January 1rst I feel like I am incarcerated in prison.
Anyhow, hopefully after these wretched holidays are over, then maybe my depression will ease and my next video will be more upbeat and educational, instead of me whining...ha.
Sparrow
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